fuck it! here's my TORCON report!!!!! PART1

( all the gory details .... )

fuck it! here's my TORCON report!!!!! PART2

Here's what you all really want to hear about right? JENSEN!!!! OH and Jared was there too.

SO for those of you who don't know this, I met the J's at Vancon10.. It was an epic fail, where I blacked out and froze during photo-ops and had to be physically pried off of Jensen. This was no fault of my own. I really don't remember it after he looked at me with that beautiful perfect freckled face and thos sparkly eyes and said hello. That's it. Then the girl in front of my had come back for me and was helping me to find my bag. Very sad day indeed. My goal at that con was to have him sign my arm near my Dean WInchester tattoo, it goes without saying that it didn't happen. It sucked.

SO I vowed for this to be a better experience, one where I "acted like a normal" not a rabid psychotic fan who intends to stalk him. I was unsure about how successful this was going to be, but this year I had a support system extroidinaire in the form of my wifey, llavishsqualorsimplybeing, and heartsowild. I had my photo with Jensen first. I was in line with simplybeing. I did alot of deep breathing, there was fleetwood mac playing, this made me happy and relaxed, I felt good. The girl in front of me seemed to know the creation people....she was hugging the photographer, I had a few extra seconds with Jensen. Long enough for me to glomp onto him and say this

Thank you for wearing that henley today.....it feels really personal.

Jensen laughs this huge deep sexy laugh and is laughing in our pic (which is adorable, him laughing that is)

oh yeah, and why is that?

Ummmmm because we're big fans of you in the henley?

Jensen laughs again and is just smiling at me after slightly grope his stomach (WHAT?) and walk backwards away.

Well, thank you.

Jesus fucking christ Jensen Ackles....does he  even know? He's wearing a fucking henley for christs sake, of course I'm going to say something stupid. So Either the next time he wears a henley it is all for us, OR we will never see it again and fandom will crucify me. OH PLEASE, I don't have that kind of power!!! ALthough I do like to believe I made the rainbow slinky appear.....just like dugindeep make the soccer pics. lol.

We had a J2 shot, Wendy and I....it was uneventful other than I messed up because we were supposed to go me, Jensen, wendy, jared. so that she could get a piece of both the guys. BUT since my defaut mode is just to glomp onto him like alittle limpet, she ended up between me and Jared. oh well.

OK now the moment of all moments....AUTOGRAPHS!!!!! I am ready, sort of, I've got an extra ticket so I can ask Jensen to sign my arm again. I feel it in the air this year, really, I did. I felt so supported and so ready and the con felt so different than Vancon in so many good ways. BUt then there were paramedics, cause the girl in the moose suit passed out and I haven't eaten in like 4 days and I think I'm on the verge too. SO I power barred and I'm good, so good. And there's Jensen and I'm next, Wendy is behind me, then lavish and put my pic down and he's smiling and laughing at it and just looking and then says "this is the epic bike ride day" and I'm just yeah, I liked that pic alot, it was on twitter. (OH GOD) and then he signs it and this is what happens:

Me :Jensen, I have another autograph ticket from my banner, but I have this tattoo...."
J: WOW, WOW...is that real?
Jensen reaches out AND TOUCHES MY ARM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me :ummmmyeah
J: You have an amazing tattoo artist
Me: Yeah she did a great job, I'm really happy with it, actually I have her on standby for Tuesday, if you'd sign my arm...

OK at this point I am going to throw up, I'm shaking like a leaf, Cliff is leaning over Jensen, security is leaning over me from behind, the handlers are all on point. guh.

Jensen looks up shocked.....
J: Seriously? You want to tattoo it?
Me: If you would
J: How do I say no to that?
    WHere do you want it? *meep*
I point to a spot on my arm
Me: somewhere around here
someone says put your arm down on the table, I don't know who. So I do, and then Jensen angles it toward him and then pulls it closer and Wendy said at this point you could see him getting nervous and that he "started to pink up" OMG!!!!! Kill me now, I made Jensen blush, that is the cutest thing in the world. It is possible he was as nervous as I was.

So Jensen manhandles my arm all around and then leans over the table...we're probably just inches away from each other but I never looked up from his hands holding down my arm and then signing it with his little freckled fingers. FUCK!

Jensen: No stress, I feel like I'm a tattoo artist now.

So he signs it and I thank him a million times

Jensen: I wanna see that when it's done

oh god, I can't take much more, I wait for Wendy and she is thanking him too and telling him I've waited years for this and he's just looking at me and smiling and I can't even stand it and I start tearing up and crying and Wendy and are hugging cause for real this is something I 've been wanting forever and it just happened. Just like that! And then comes lavishsqualorand we're squeeing and OMG...the best!!!!

SO I see Cliff
, Hey, you, come here. Do you follow me on facebook or twitter? No, well leave me a message and I'll get it to Jensen for you.

Is this really my life right now??????

So then autographs with Jared, where I do NOTHING but talk about Jensen and how he just signed my arm for me and then I say "BUT HOW BOUT THOSE GILMORE GIRLS" yeah. that's what I said to Jared, that and look at my arm Jensen just signed. LOL.

Off to dowtown Toronto with my tattoo emergency....with lavish, simplybeing and wendy the wifey. It was AWESOME to have them there with me. Thank you Marcella at Adrenaline tattoo.

AND then the longest night ever where I sat in the lobby withlavishsqualor, never wanting it to end and showing my arm to anyone who walked by me too slow. I even had the front desk guys google searching him. :P We topped it off with unexpected fantimes with "Northern Ireland" who shipped Sam/Balthazar, wrote fanfic in secret, and is willing to disassemble himself for Misha Collins.

If only I were kidding.

Fuck Marry or Kill: Season 1 Dean, teenageDean, futureDean ?????? I know, it's a hard one lavish!
I had the best weekend ever, I never wanted it to end, I am thankful and lucky to have such and understanding and amazing wife who let me just fangirl out all weekend with no repurcussions or judgement. She even let another girl into our bed ;P

THis is the story of how Jensen and I soulbonded with a sharpie!!!!