Like a Boss!

shut up right????really just shut up...I have Dean fucking Winchester on my arm. She knocked it
out like a fucking Rock Star. RIGHT? OMG!!!! I am in serious love here.
I just stare at my arm like a wierdo...cause even upside down the way I see it, It's just ugh.

Here's my shop story...I have an appointment and this girl bless her heart has had to deal with
email after email from me for a week with different contrast versions of this pic. I am waiting for
an email back from her like "Bitch this looks exactly like the last 5 you sent" SERIOUSLY.
So I go into the shop and all the guys accost me, who's this guy what movie is this from? And
apparently there was quite some talk about the size of his package :) Jealous much. 

SO....Autumn is drawing up the stencil and the guys are like :

What's that ink under your arm?

Me: It says's Dean Winchester, you know *points to stencil*...that guy.

Oh my god!, you're totally ob-...*silence*
(the guy, the owner of the tattoo shop stops mid sentence like a deer in headlights)

Me: You were gonna say obsessed *lol* XD...HA!!!...yeah, I am. I mean I glad those guys are
thousands of miles away so I don't have to follow them around and dodge restraining orders.

And so he starts laughing and is like "I'm glad you're being such a good sport about it, I mean 
everybody has their thing" blah blah...and then the guys kept coming back while she was 
working and looking at it and saying "what do you like about this guy besides his package" and 
"ooooo I'm a badass marlboro man", "it's his second gun, his flesh-gun"
....they were totally ridiculously intimidated by Dean Winchester
in tattoo form. And I understand that. And 2 out of 3 of the guys watch the show. FOR REAL??

It was all pretty hilarious. So to end things theys say "If that guy doesn't sign your arm after this he's a 
complete douchenozzel....or he's busy callling for security"...obviously their words and not mine, but
Jensen,...listen up!

Anyway...It's stupid amazing right? I'm in freaking love with it!

TWICE IN ONE DAY!!!! WHAT????

I was just telling big_heart_june about my tattoo story and it occurred to me that I should post this here.

ALTHOUGH, I am just a bit crazy and a bit stupid crazy about Dean, I'm not as obsessed as it may seem.
When I was 28 I had Hodgkins Lymphoma and it sucked, alot. I had a 4 yr. son to take care of, no insurance,
and it sucked. ALOT. Anyhoo, after surgery, & 8 rounds of chemo, that left me bald and extremely ill (as I didn't have 
the means to get any anti-nausea meds) I promptly quit against my doctors wishes and switched to months
of radiation. I've had no recurrances and I airquote here, "I am fine" (because poison and radiation in no
way leave you fine ever again). But it's 15 years later and I'm alive and I've got to watch my son grow up
which is all I really was hoping for. The rest now is just bonus time as far as I'm concerned.

SO that stuff is stuff I don't talk alot about, I'm not a proud "survivor", and I don't wanna run in your race for 
the cure. I'm bitter and it SUCKED. And I live my life with it and i don't want anymore reminders. It was 
something that I suffered thru and barely made it past,  it changed who I am as a person and not all in good ways.
 
(It's possible I need some therapy)

Anyway, the end result is a heart murmur, a messed up thyroid, and a shit ton of scar tissue around my 
heart and in my chest and neck on the left side. I had alot of pain there and I still do. After 10 years of it
I had a brilliant idea of starting to tattoo the right side of my body, just to try and refocus my brain away
from the right side and the real and imaginary pain there.

I always liked tattoo sleeves, my mother is gone now so I don't have her disapproving glare, I only have me
to please and delight with it. AND so it is. THere is nothing that delights me more or could possibly be
more mentally distracting to me than Dean Winchester. Am I right or am I right? So after running it by my
girlfriend (How do you feel about having a seriously inked up wife?) and my son (who is the most
ultra-conservative 17 yr old ever and is appalled but resigned to it and thinks I am entirly too old and washed
up to be getting tattoos) I started this endevor. 

So this tattoo, even more than the last, is so much more about me than Dean. I know you'll all understand.

Now let's never talk of this again. LOL

Thank you to any of my flist who is reading this, I really love you all!

Not at the table Carlos!

Just try and tell me that my new puppy is not the cutest puppy of all time? I dare you!
Now....I am done posting for the day. Geesh.